Thursday, September 24, 2009

One Independent Woman

I discovered this past week that living by myself for 11 years, come this November, that I've turned into a fiercely independent woman. It was a stark realization actually, and I'm not sure if that's good or bad!

Years ago I was worried about being co-dependent, and now I think I've flown over the edge to independent. How did I get here? Well, I guess it's because I've had no one to lean on for the past 11 years. I've made all my own choices, acted for myself, been an independent thinker, and haven't succumbed to the influence or control of others! Hum, sounds awfully freeing to me.

In addition, I manage my own money, financially support myself, fix my broken things, haul my stuff, and cook my meals. The independent list goes on and on like the Energizer bunny. There is no one to do things for me, which just adds to my independent thought of, hell, I can do this myself!

On the other side of the coin though I've recognized that living my life in close proximity with other human beings again is going to be a huge challenge! At this point, I'm certainly not going to match well with a man who is looking for a submissive wife.

Since I doubt I'll ever marry again, this may not be a problem. However, if by some divine intervention from above I do meet a man, they will need to respect the independent woman I have become over the years alone. I won't need to lean on a man to protect or rescue me, nor will I need one to take care of me. Looks like I've done okay by myself. What I will want, is a companion.

I guess I will look at marriage more like a partnership arrangement. Two independent individuals, who respect one another and blend together well. Sounds like a recipe for success. I just hope I get to taste it!

Vicki