Friday, January 1, 2010

The Past, Present, and Future

Happy New Year! I thought I would post on this momentous occasion of the first day of 2010. Of course, I'll probably get a bit philosophical, so bear with me!

Last night I spent another New Year's Eve alone. I did horrible things - dastardly things! I overate. I watched the BBC production of North & South for the second time in two weeks (four hours worth of DVD's), cried at the end, and went to bed at 11:50 p.m. Then I lay there in the dark waiting for midnight and the New Year.

I will admit as the fire crackers started bursting outside my apartment window (thanks to my wonderful neighbors by the way), my first thought was, will this be another year that I will spend alone? Unfortunately, rather than being filled with hope that it would not, I closed my eyes in resignation to the possibility it would. I've learned that striving and agonizing over the matter changes nothing, except the state of my heart.

While listing to the popping outdoors, I said a little prayer for the things I wished for in 2010. I think all of us want health, happiness, and prosperity - even if prosperity just means possessing the finances to make our monthly bills these days.

After that, I thought about my writing goals for my two books and pondered whether it was worth the trouble since marketing is so dang hard. When the popping finally stopped, I concluded I'm driven to write whether I sell any books or not. It's part of who I am as a person, and if I start denying that gift inside, I might as well pull the covers over my head and hide the entire 2010!

As singles, we are faced with another year. What are your desires? What are your resolutions? What dreams do you hope to fulfill? What things are you glad to leave behind in 2009?

I will admit that New Year's day is really my favorite holiday of all. It gives me a clean slate. I can close the door to my disappointments, failures, heartaches, unfulfilled desires, frustrations, and tears. On the other hand, I can open a new door and step through to live another year of endless possibilities.

I'm reminded of the scripture in Philippians 3:13, "...one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead ..." I think that's great advice.

Have a wonderful New Year everyone!

Cheerfully yours,
Vicki